People....

Not really sure where I'm going with this but we'll see.... ok... I never really thought of myself as a drama queen. I think some people go and look for it and with some people it finds them from time to time and with others they just avoid it like the plague. I think I'm the one in the middle. Drama finds me from time to time and although that sucks it makes my life more interesting for a short time and heightens my awareness of who I really am and who my friends really are. At times, those things blurr. I think they do for a lot of people though. You go through life living and you forget to check in with who you are and what you are about anymore. Life gets in the way of just remembering you sometimes. So at times I've made mistakes but all in all I've had a good life with good friends and great parents who have helped me more than they will ever realize. Im grateful for all of it. But there is always the flipside of that. The people who stab you in the back and make you feel like shit. I have had those people in my life too. I think I'm finally rid of those people for good though. There hasn't been any goodness that has come from them being in my life in a long time and so the ties have been undone. I'm ok with that. I'm living my life for me and my family and my real friends now. Thats all I need. And you don't need to have 40 or 80 friends that you don't remember on your myspace to have friends. You need to have a select few good people who know you and love you... and know them and love them back. If you're my friend, thank you. If you're not, oh well. I'm happy with the friends I have, the ones I may meet from here on out, and the ones I have left behind. So maybe people should get over the number of people in their life and look at the quality of people in their life is all I'm trying to say. I think I've made my point. Later all! That woman up there has been through EVERYTHING with me and she's still by my side.... no matter what we dislike about one another we still love one another.... that's a real true friend thats more like my family!!!